Friday, July 31, 2015

Explore Semarang | Through the Lens

Bought a new memory card in Semarang with my own THR and at first I wanted to film this as a film project but then I found out it had to be a fiction movie and I got all disappointed and stuff but I didn't want this footage to go to waste so I decided to edit it like a travel video.

Here's for more travelling videos coming up soon!

Friday, July 24, 2015

Late Night Pointless Thoughts.

 I apologize in advance, and I do need your sympathy. 

Been thinking a lot lately. Well I use my brain everyday but. I've been thinking about something quite serious. I miss my junior high school friends. But then again, do they miss me? I can clearly say that I am not happy, you can tell by what I am trying to tell you. Either I changed or the society change? I cannot seem to figure that out. The over thoughts in my head are whirling up in desire to be over thought. Nothing that comes out from my brain make sense anymore. I miss those who I could call my best friends. But meeting them never seem to make it up. I miss the moments I spent with them. I could recall every thing in my head and then you could see it crying. I miss being happy around them, you know what I'm saying. I dunno I just, maybe they think I forgot all about them but, it still recalls every time the word "you have no best friends" keeps haunting me. People think I don't care cause I don't show it. Maybe because I never learnt that to have a best friend, you have to be a best friend. (Yet I'm nowhere near that phase now). In elementary school best friends keep coming up to me, and I didn't need to put an effort on it. Now that I'm in High School now things has changed. 

This post came out really depressing actually. Sorry about that. 

I just haven't found myself in High School just yet. But then again I'm only 2 days away from Senior Year. Good luck self.
A pic of me with my elementary school buddies. 

Harry Potter update: I just finished the book Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Whoah some sirius stuff written there) yesterday and now I'm about to start Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire but. There's no but. I'm going to continue it no matter what. But maybe tomorrow. 

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Keeping Up With The Harry Potter Books.

As a kid I always grew up with looking at my brother diving in a Harry Potter book. I used to think that he was a complete nerd for doing that, I'm sorry. I always watch the Harry Potter movies with him and the family. I never really dig in the movie and the whole plot. I didn't really understand much stuff, I just thought it was a great movie back then. When the Harry Potter online game which I forgot the name of it (If any of you know what I'm talking about please comment down bellow of the site that I'm trying to tell you), I wasn't part of that community even though I thought it was pretty cool. I didn't think I was old enough for heavy reading. As you can tell on my last vlog I said I'm not that kind of a book person. 

But I have this theory, people who read Harry Potter books must be a genius because that is one thick book. And I always secretly admired people who read Harry Potter books like my friend Hani, or Azzah, or Icha, and even my brother. I once told my friend about that theory and he must of think that I was insane. But, I kept on to that theory. Only people who read Harry Potter books are geniuses. Then I thought, why can't I become one?

'Is it too late to start reading Harry Potter?' I asked my brother, and thankfully the answer was satisfying cause you're never too late to start something new. And the first ever fiction book I actually dig in was Girl Online. I always watch vlogs about Book Reviews but I never really read them. I was just amazed in a strange sort of way with people who read. Andovi once said, (well I bet he quoted it from someone else but) Our brain is like a knife, you'd have to sharpen it to cut sharp, we sharpen our brains using books. And then I thought, when will I ever start to read? I was fed up with my brain cause I feel like it kept consleting every time I speak and people might think I'm dumb.

So I started reading. Well I had to admit my first book was Girl Online even though it was written by a ghostwriter but it sure was the first book that made me fall in love with reading. I might have to thank that ghostwriter someday. And from now one I'm promising myself to read a book. Any book. Starting with the Harry Potter series. 

P.s. I've already finished the Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone book (took me three days). And now I'm continuing with Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets. Wish me luck! 

Friday, July 10, 2015

Quotes I Live By.

Before I say anything else, if anyone knows a place/site to read daily and has the latest news and trends and knowledge and everything please let me know. And yeah I have heard about the newspaper but I want it something more modern, and I have heard about the newspaper website but that's a different thing. I want a place that has daily reads and writings from professional writers.

So, I am coming up with a new video idea but there are slight problems. My camera is not working with me. I mean the camera is perfectly fine but the memory card is being a bitch. It's the only memory card I have that can be used in filming but it's being a bitch lately cause it needs to format but when I format it on the camera it says "Cannot be format" like what the hell? I am not a professional in this yet. I even deleted and format it on my laptop but it still doesn't work. Now I'm left with an idea stuck in my head and I can't seem to let it out. I mean, I could always write it down on my brainstorming book anytime but it's just different.

Since I haven't been blogging for a while so I think I should write it down here instead until I finally got my memory card. So here's what I've been thinking about: Quotes I Live By.

Many of people struggle in life and I chose a path to always see the positive way and a way through it, even at certain nights I don't always feel like that. But I'm trying to stay positive in any sort of way. It's a thing now where people give you advice and say stay positive. But I don't think that's enough. You can't tell that to your brain cause it still has a lot of branches to think about the negativity in life. 
So I give you Quotes I Live By to held and to always mesmerize. 

1] Live the life you imagine.

I bet you all had thought what you would be, where you would live, who you would be with in the future. So instead of just imagining it, it gives you nowhere. Try do something so you could live in that imaginary world and make it come true. Because you have to do something that your future self would thank you for. I've decided to do youtube, and let's see what the future might hold.

2] Work hard until you no longer have to introduce yourself. 

This is similar to "Work until you don't need to see the price tag while you're shopping." I think about this quote a lot. I even wrote it on a mug I put on my desk so it would magically come true, but of course with effort and hard work. Yet I don't like the phrase "no pain no gain" cause it's too harshful for the brain to think that you need to pain to gain, there is so many better ways to say that in a much better phrase. 

3] "Yang pinter tuh harus kamu, bukan bapak mu, bukan guru les mu, bukan temen kamu, tapi kamu"- Pak Amin, Guru Fisika.

This ones really stuck in my head because I am actually that one student who rely on my tutor or I copy the answers from my friend. Cheating is really not good for the brain cause it would think that "it's fine, you could always copy her answers" but when it comes to real life and real test like those big exams you take to go to college? you cannot cheat there. Coming from a student who is going to face those exams, cheating is not the answer. I swear I regret those days I copy my friend's answers rather than figuring it out myself.

Monday, July 06, 2015

Trouble Sleeping & I Miss Writing.

I can't remember the last time I actually wrote on this blog, I apologize in advance. I know by lack of writing makes me lack of viewers and readers too but there's just so much going on.

I actually started youtube like how I said I doubted on my post Youtuber To Be or Not To Be and cause it had a lot of nice comments it made me actually thinking of doing it cause I wanted to do something that my future self could thank me for later. And I guess it's a start of something new? Oh my god I sound like Troy from High School Musical.

Anyways, I remember I used to say Anyhoo because I liked reading Dork Diaries and she always start up again with Anyhoos so, I thought it was cool back then, what'dya think? I mean it still sound pretty cool tho am I right?

Have you ever felt so bored in your life you could watch a whole back-to-back youtube video for about 20 minutes each? I went through that phase and now I kinda regret it because I start thinking of the possibilities I could do whilst those 20 minutes. But you can't take back what you have done. So I'm making sure I'm being productive now. I make sure I have a plan for a whole day cause that is a good way to start a day. You know. Knowing what to do. It actually excites me to actually get things done.

Today I traveled via public transportation on my own because I felt for a little me-time adventure and I had something to do so I guess why not use that opportunity? I totally didn't vlog the whole thing nor even posted a snapchat because I wanted to  be my own adventure. Have you ever felt something like that before? Wanting to do something for yourself for a change? I finally did it.

So anytime you're so sick of the world and just needed a time off?
Go out there make memories and keep it to yourself.


I recently finished reading a book called Girl Online and just when I made a video review about it, well its actually not a video review it's basically just me fangirling about it. But just when I made a video about it, I didn't knew the rumor that it was ghost written. But all the ideas were pure Zoe's. But just as uncaring as I am, I actually don't care if it is ghost written cause she wouldn't be able to write a pure gold book like that anyways because of all of the Youtube shenanigans going on and I never see her busy writing so, it makes sense. But I fell in love with the story. I've never fall in love with a book before so this is new for me. I fell in love with the characters and the story and how it relates to me.

Anyways I'm still gonna post the video on my youtube channel after I edit it because I haven't posted in a week so.

Coming up is a rant about Quotes I Live By so make sure to comment about the quotes that inspires you down below!
I keep writing as if somebody's gonna read my blog again haha. Poor me.

Love, Amalia.

Saturday, December 13, 2014

Live on Youtube!

Satu Pangkat Tiga, A Film by Adil Nan Damai Production. A group of kids from SMA Labschool Cibubur attends to make a comedy movie for the first time. This movie had won an award for "Best Movie", "Best Actor" and "Best Co-Star" and got nominated for "Best Movie Trailer", "Best Script", and "Best Poster" from Labschool Movie Awards 2014. An annual movie festival held by Labschool Cibubur. Watch it and enjoy! And if you enjoy it please give it a thumbs up and comment what you think should Satu Pangkat Tiga part 2 be like next!

Saturday, November 29, 2014

Self Visualization???

If you were to paint your self on a big canvas, how would it be like? If you had all the skills an artist could have, how would you draw your life? How do you see yourself? 

That's not so easy. I'm currently struggling through life now. I see myself as a small fish in an ocean that you don't want to catch, I see myself as a tiny piece of crumbles that you don't wanna eat, I see myself as a rotten candy on the back of the shelf that you don't even notice it's there. And how you see yourself effects on how others see you. I know that I really do. But it's still hard for me to go out there. I still wanna stay in this comfort zone, in this little place I call home. I'm scared to see what's out there cause there's too many things going on. I have my lovers my best friends, but that's not enough.

In high school, I'm always in that "It Girls" squad but I'm always on the bottom list. I've always been that least person anyone wants to hang out with. One of my best friend once said "If we weren't nice to you, you'd be anti-social" and that one harsh words is still hanging around my head even though she said it a year ago. I always want to try to open up more but not everybody can see "me". There's this one girl who hates me and that girl happens to have the power to make everybody else hate me too. I depend too much on people. I sacrifice too much. When I don't even get anything in return.

I've never been in the center stage, I've never been the spotlight. I'm always that one girl you never notice in a crowd of screaming fans. Sometimes it distresses me cause I can't be me around specific people sometimes. When all I wanted is for people to see me, because I know there's a side of me that is amusing and interesting, I just need to show it.

But somehow, everything's hard. I'm having a hard time trusting. My life is so plain at the moment. The only thing that makes me happy is my lover. I am so lucky to have him. He accepts me, and tells me about the things I shouldn't do and things I should do. I'm still lucky to have someone who understands and accepts me.

So I paint life as an ocean, plain and beautiful at once outside, but there's a lot of going on in the inside, you just need to dive in and see to enjoy it.

P.s. take me back to this island