Author's Note: (Before you read this, you might want to read this and this first)
Have you ever had the feeling of missing something and you realize you can't get it back? Somehow I feel that way about my experiences with my friends to Australia.... I miss Australia, but if I come back and pay a visit, it will never feel the same. So my heart is left alone by the feeling of missing those moments.... You may think I'm overreacting about this, and I don't usually miss something so much but now I miss Australia.. I miss the kids in EPIC who were adorable and super friendly. I remember the first day of school and everybody had to introduced ourselves and Ina and I sang infront of the class, she sang Superbass by Nicki Minaj and I sang What Makes You Beautiful by (the one and only, oh you know it) One Direction. That is why people know me as a directioner and they said that I was a great singer (thank you though ;) I know we still can communicate from facebook but it's just not the same.
Some girls wrote on my journal so that made me miss them every time I open my journal. They wrote something sweet like "You're a nice friend, it's so great to have you in our class" and something cheesy like "I'll miss you, please don't forget me". I also miss my hostfam (they call it that), Ms. Sonya and her daughter Ferdos. Also Ms. Rayan (because I spend the time mostly at their house too) and her daughters, Sahar and Sofia, oh and her sister too! she's nice. Not to forget the Nachabe's too, I wonder if they still remember me.... They weren't my hostfam but we were close. I seriously can't pick one of the best experience in Aussie because all of them were just EPIC!
//Fun (out of the topic) fact: I usually listen to music when I'm on the computer, but when I write I have to turn it off to make my brain think clearly and I don't easily forget what I wanna write down.//
I can't believe my last post was two weeks ago. Sorry to disappoint you. I've always wanted to write but I never have time, now that I'm a ninth grader but being a ninth grader isn't an excuse to not post a blog. Sorry for being a lazy updater but I'm updating now! So, this week, Glee's episode is going to be about Guilty Pleasures so I guess I would like to talk about my guiltiest pleasures. Everybody has at least one guilty pleasure. If you think you don't have one, think again. Before I get to the point where I tell you what my guilty pleasures are I have to warn you that I have a lot and I don't think I'm going to write all of it down. And I don't know where I got the guts to talk about my guilty pleasure cause it rarely happens to me. My first and guiltiest pleasure is....... dancing and singing a lot to a song in front of my mirror making facial expressions or doing a fashion runway trying on some clothes and stuff. Like what I just did 20 minutes ago. Okay too much information-_- I know it's normal but I can never do that when other people are around. I only do that when I'm mentally bored and I'm always mentally bored.
Okay, my second guilty pleasure is chick flicks. I could say that I don't like watching horror movies or even action movies but I just love dramas and maybe sometimes comedy but I love to watch movies about relationships..... Maybe some people think it's boring but I like it. AND I love on and off screen relationships like Vanessa and Zac Efron but they're not together anymore sadly. It kinda disappoints me sometimes when the couple in the movie isn't a real couple off screen but I know that's none of my business. But now I have to postpone my chick flicks marathon time until April, my national exam week. And I already have a list of movies to buy and/ download.
Which leads me to the third guilty pleasure, shopping. I'm actually a really consumptive person. People might not know that I'm "in" to fashion is because I'm saving up for something I already have in mind but keeping it a secret. Fourth, people who plays the guitar. I get jealous when I see and hear someone who can play the guitar very well in my age. It made me regret the past view years I didn't take the opportunity to learn how to play the guitar. Does that count? I don't really care I'm writing it down anyways.
Junk Food/Fast Food are also my guilty pleasure cause I realize I can't stand a week without them. And if I crave for something, I crave them badly. When there's nothing good on the menu, I will certainly ask to call mcdonalds or burger king. I know it's not good for me but hey, what can I say. But lately I've been decreasing my need for fast foods cause I'm starting to think about my future appearance. Maybe I'm like Marley, I'm already thin but I have fear of getting fat cause of my "genetics". But I don't want that to get in my mind all the time. And I know it's unhealthy, I don't have to hear that a million times. Disney Movies and Cartoons are also one of my guilty pleasure. Like I always say, You're never too old for cartoons :D
Well those are some of my guilty pleasures maybe I'll add some later. Now tell me YOUR guiltiest pleasures! I know the picture up there doesn't have anything to do about this post but I like it! My panda gave it to me yesterday.
So my school has this policy slash rule slash whatever it is where students are not allowed to wear colorful and below-ankled socks. Which I think is soooo lame. I would disclaim but nobody ain't got time for that. I don't wanna waste my time just dealing with this socks policy. So please, what's the big deal?
Today I wore my favorite blue-white-striped socks to school and during the test my ICT teacher came in my class and took all the socks that were against the law. Including my socks. At first I didn't want to take it off cause who wants naked cold feet? Nobody. And my socks were still white! But he forced me to take it off so I did with an attitude. I hope he didn't notice my attitude when I took it off. He promised me I could get it back after the test but noooooo my lousy teacher didn't gave back the socks they took from me AND the other students too. Isn't that not polite? First, I didn't wear any socks in class, it's filthy. Second, breaking a promise after saying I could get it back after the test. Third, telling us they're gonna throw away our socks for no reason? That's rude. This is sick and I don't like it.
That doesn't makes me wanna follow the rule, you know? It makes me wanna break the rule even more! It's only socks. I can't believe 'they' make it a big deal. Does it really matter? Does it really affect me during studying? No. The answer is no. Screw you and your lame rules. At least give me my socks back. #attitude. But I don't really mind because I still have a lot of socks and that could be the reason to buy new socks. But today, that made me really really disappointed. Okay? It's pathetic.
Today I literally spent my whole afternoon re-organizing my desk. Including the drawers and stuffs I don't wanna put in my room any longer. Plus I got this Desk Organizer thingy from the Go Girl Magazine a couple days ago so it kinda motivate me to clean up my desk and make space for my studying time because now I am a 9th grader I have to start the engine to fight for April 22, the national exam! This Desk Organizer thingy is so helpful it made my desk look girlier yet useful in the same way. I put some notebooks and magazine on the back, stationary things and pencil cases in the middle, and you see 4 squares in the front. I used one for my candy section, I always need to chew candies when I'm studying. My headset and Panda Pocketbac on the second box. Some tissues and medicure things on the other boxes.
aaaaand it looks like this! It's very very easy to make.
Year 9, which is now. Today. I am a 9th grader. I don't know why but being a 9th grader feels awesome for me. I'm like the senior to my juniors but I still have a senior. It's like I'm in the middle. The rightest position I could ever ask for. But then comes this one end of the year 9 line which people call, National Exam. It only exists in Indonesia, i think? Honestly, I kinda hate the education system here in Indonesia because it's so complicated, compared to other countries. But I have to do it whether I like it or not. At the end of the line, there happens to be another line called "year 10" and the line of life goes on and on and on and on until you reached the limit which is death.
Year 10, where to go? Well before I go any longer I have to tell you I got accepted in the High School I applied 5 days ago. I feel like I'm on the top of the world! But there comes this situation called the "decision" part where me, myself, and moi, I have to decide whether I take it or not. And it's kinda a dilemma for me because there's too much to lose if I don't take it. But there's some risks too if I take it. Luckily, my parents finally allows me to take it so why not?
College? I've already been starting to save some college applications I often get in the mall or other public places. I always save them in one place so I could take a look at it if I finish high school. But I've been thinking, If I go to college, what would my parents do without me? Reminding you that I am the youngest child. I hope my brother already have kids of his own when I go to college so at least someone would be around for my folks when I'm not around. This post is a reminder to myself that I have to put some effort if I want to get what I want and keep trying even if the sky is falling down.
Future job........ let's just talk about this in the future when I finish high school or at least get to college. "I can't tell you the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everyone"-ed sheeran-
A week ago from today I turned 15 in 2013. 2 days ago a friend of mine gave me a tie full of helium balloons! It's amazing cause that was what I always wanted. But sadly my helium balloons didn't last for a day... Massive thank you for the person who gave me the balloons and actually bright up my day!
This is my art section part of my room. My friend said that my room was very artistic because it's full of random and quirky artsy things. I didn't realized that at first, until I took this picture. I even have a corner named "The Art Corner" because it's full of my arts and craft but it's a little bit messy right now, today is not the best day to take a picture of it.
The highlight of today: my friends gave me a strawberry cheesecake to celebrate my birthday! Even though my birthday was a week ago. Heaps of love for deva, almira, azka, ghina, dita, naf, nano, putri, hani, farisa, fia, ina, and dio. Sorry I have no pictures heheh. Even I didn't expect a thing. It was definitely a birthday to remember<3